There’s been a lot of stuff going on of late, I certainly feel brighter than I have done in some time. It just takes time to work through things, gain perspective and come to conclusions.
But some things never really get “closed out”. Some things you look back at and wonder if they really were as good as you thought at the time. Were they really worth the effort or did they cost you dearly in subtle ways you didn’t notice? Were they real or simply a function of over-optimism, daring to dream and a little too much rose tinting of shades? Would I have been better off if it had never been?
“What if?”, “why did I bother?”, “was it worth it?”, “why can’t I let it go?”.
Are such things important? Who knows?
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Often dreams land Dan, and once landed you always wonder whether it was worth the effort to keep them flying. But if I had a choice between “He was a dreamer.” versus “He was a pragmatist.” on my tombstone, I would go for the first one. I realize you call yourself the “Pragmatic Dictator”, but heck dreamers can do that
Good luck with your new challenges and no doubt we’ll meet again.
Hey Mark,
Thanks for the kind words.
The post is about being at a point in my life where I feel I am re-examining a lot of my past as I consider serious aspects of my future. I didn’t like some of what I found like maybe focusing too much on what were in hingsight perhaps unhealthy relationships. Could I have known at the time? Was it fun? Was I a fool? Did I allow myself to be used? Do I feel like I did good?
And the only conclusion I came to is, we can never know with certainty the truth of such matters. All you can do is proceed! All of which leads me to:
We will meet up again – I have enjoyed our shared beer drinking time and plan to do it again.
Very best,
Dan.